Interval Training

Remember this post here? Seems I've found myself back in this position. Where do we go from here? At this point, I don't know and I'm trying not to care. Due to lack of communication, which we openly discussed working on, things built up once again, and a minor bomb was dropped, leaving our relationship to hang in the balance. It's so tiring to the point that it trumps interval running training. And that's what I've compared this entire relationship to.

With running in intervals, you run, jog, or sprint for a certain length of time, only to switch to a moderate to brisk walking speed, then after a certain length (usually minutes), you switch back to your run. This helps build stamina, endurance, and in due time, you'll be able to run a few miles with no need to walk or stop. Although I had a rough time sleeping, I still managed to wake up this morning with the metaphor of comparing my relationship to interval running.

Seems the whole time my heart has also been in training, and I think it's somewhat fair to compare my experience to most growing or deteriorating relationships. You have a good run with your lover, all smiles, enjoying each others' company, then you have to slow things down to think and process your emotions and mindset, then you're back off again to holding hands. Hopefully through all of this, whatever relationship I have, my heart will have endured enough interval training to know love just a bit better and to recognize when one is fighting for the relationship harder than the other.

I'm at peace knowing I did nothing wrong, accept try, and trying, no matter if its running or loving someone, aids in improvement. And dammit, I've tried with all my might. This will be difficult, but hopefully not as difficult as it was the last time. The love is still there, and I won't bank on it going away anytime soon if not ever. Sad, yes. Hurt, a little. Disappointed, a great deal.

But I'm still going to run in life and in love.