So far, depressed

I rarely do updates, but I just wanted to let you all know that I'm recognizing signs of depression, so I might be down for a minute. This is something I really don't broadcast unless it's related to a past experience or used as a means to inform and educate, but I guess writing it out will allow me to, well, I don't really know, proactively work it out.

At least I can say that I acknowledged it early on before it got worse. I recognized it yesterday, having the usual symptoms: I didn't want to get out of my sleep, I was pretty much mute all day, I had little negative thoughts seeping into my mind, and I was emotionally disconnected. And right now, I'm not sure if it's because I woke up early, but the feelings are still there.

Even though I've been taking my antidepressants regularly, I have been drinking quite a bit lately, but nothing too severe accept for one night. It's not good to drink heavily while taking antidepressants because alcohol is also a depressant, but not the kind that actually helps. It's also a diuretic, so the little pills that are trying to help you get through your depression are pissed out before they can do their job.

A feeling that I don't want to feel along with drinking, triggered my depression. I feel absolutely nothing. If nothing else, I'll have to lay off the drinking for a while, reinforce positive thinking, workout, and continue to take my meds regularly. Once you recognize the depression, then you know what to do to treat it. I'll be cool once I'm adjusted.

Much love,

Bama